Tuesday, 21 August 2012

HAYLEY & KENNY

So I am at that age where everyone around me seems to be getting married or having babies. A sister friend of mine got married on Sunday (19.8.2012) and I was honoured to be asked to write and perform a poem at the wedding. For those who have asked where they can find it, here it is :) Oh if you like what you read, Join the site to keep updated


There shall be no disguising this love
Expressed through manly tears
And trembling petite hands
As rings embrace fingers
And I do’s are flung with vows towards heaven like confetti
As we enjoin in prayers that God catches them
And embraces you in his union so that yours does not fail
And you do not fall

Let time be kind to you
Engulfing you in the mind of this moment
Where feelings match reality and minds are free from torment
This moment where silent gazes shout sweet nothings
Like; you look as beautiful as the first day I saw you
and; I am so glad I found YOU
This moment where every memory breathes love
Till it becomes the lifeblood coursing through your veins
Making hearts pound
Till they race across the divide to catch each other
And begin to beat as one
Let time be kind to you and trap you in the mind of this moment

Take lessons from those who have gone before you
Remembering to choose wisely
Cus not everyone’s counsel is relevant
Or will suit you precisely

Assume nothing
Discern everything
Think in unison
But remember you are not telepathic
So speak always

Tell him
Tell him of your deepest fears
And of dreams that come only in daylight
Cus they make your subconscious scared
Tell him
Tell him when things aren’t going right
Even when he can’t fix them
Sharing will make the load light
And the light at the end of the tunnel brighter
So tell him
Tell him why you admire him
And when he asks you for the umpteenth time why you love him
You better tell him
Write a damn list if you have to but tell him
Say it often
Until the sound of your voice becomes like sticks beating his ear drums
Making his feet move to the sweet rhythm of your love played over and over again

Speak always
Remembering that feelings are not gender specific
Tell her
Tell her of fears you’d like to erase
Of scars
Of dreams
And of expectations that make you feel small
The touch of her hands will make you feel taller
So tell her
Tell her of times you have taken life’s blows in your stride
And times you cried
She will not question your manhood
She will only affirm it
So tell her
Speak often of love
Reciting the words to that well versed Hayley is the light of my world poem that I am yet to hear
Remembering days when eyes traced faces
And lips tried to speak but couldn’t
As throats clenched and then opened only enough
To let out the words you are my perfection

Speak often
But when anger comes
Let hearts speak in tongues that tongues cannot fathom
In silent moments that preserve
As moods subside
And anger resiles

And when friends tease you about being sprung
Admit it with pride
Tell them you can tell his mood from the stroke of his pen
Tell them you can feel her tears before her tear ducts release them
Tell them these are things you only learn when you are planning for eternity
Tell them how she is your very breath
And he your lungs
And when God blesses you with what can only be termed your perfection
Tell them the only way you will have it is sprung,


So live
Trust
Laugh
And love like there is no tomorrow
And when tomorrow comes
find new ways to grow together
Shunning conflict and fighting indifference
Live, Laugh, Love, Trust
And pray that time will be kind to you


©ToluAgbelusi All Rights Reserved


Sunday, 12 August 2012

PEACE


SO I had to talk about peace in 30 seconds which is
so much harder than i thought it would be because most of my stuff is between 3 and 5 minutes
but I like the end result, Listen and let me know what you think:





Thursday, 2 August 2012

02.08.2012


When I no longer have the luxury of time
When hope has disappointed more times than I can count
When words don’t soothe
And food doesn’t calm
When efforts don’t yield and plans are a sham
I guess it’s time to sit and just cry


Monday, 30 July 2012


In exactly 2 days, 12 hours and God Knows how many minutes
My phone will ring
Twice
They will either start me rejoicing
Or plunge me into misery
Tell me it’s all been worth it
Or that the last 6 years were a waste
Whatever they say
I just wish Thursday would come in haste
Cus anxiety has me eating comfort
And though I haven’t stopped eating
I am feeling no comfort
In exactly 2 days, 12 hours and God Knows how many minutes
My phone will ring
And a new Chapter will begin


Thursday, 28 June 2012

HOARDERS


I am surrounded by hoarders
Hoarders of opportunity
Who speak with mouths closed
Shake with hands clasped
And interact with bated breath
Scared to let something go


They are scared
To give away what they perceive
To be an unfair advantage
Help a brother take that next step on the ladder
Share information to make another's future brighter
They are scared

They never learnt to count past ONE
See past I's
Be that ONE
That smiles when another shines

They are hoarders
Of secrets not theirs
Of too many boxes
Of too many boxes of untapped happiness
Which they would expereince
If only they opened their boxes
And just
SHARED.


Friday, 8 June 2012

HOPELESS


 I am tired of waiting
For a future that will not come
As tomorrows yield tomorrows
That make today question whether it ever went to sleep
I am tired of dreaming

Its time hope found me

Wednesday, 9 May 2012

SNAP OUT OF IT




Sister, Friend
Stronger than you’ve ever been
That’s how I want to see you
Staring down adversity like it don’t phase you
Teasing challenge to come and test you
Reminding emotions they don’t control you
And tormenting past failures with evidence of true progress

Stronger than you’ve ever been that’s how I want to see you
Not chasing men who are beneath you
Or letting so called friends demean you
But embracing all the strength that’s within you
And being all the greatness God’s put within you

So what if some people are meant
To be the darker side of the moon
Enabling others to shine
If that’s what you think you have been doing
Now it’s your time
The moon has spun all around its axis
It’s now your time to shine

So today, make no excuses
When you call I will not answer the phone
I will just come to you
But today,
I will not hold your hand
I will not wipe your tears
I will just come
Be there
Stand close enough for you to see me
But still far so you can run on your own steam
I will not be too far
I want to see you come into full beam

I can see it now
You will shout for me
But I will not come closer
Today I will just stand here
I will stand here and shout

Please
Please come out of the shadows
Please be as strong as you are
Please stop letting life be like gallows
Please embrace the beauty that you are
Please

And if all this feels too hard
Pretend until strength becomes you
I will not come closer
But sister I can see you
I will not wipe those tears
But I am right here for you
Waiting patiently for you to shine
Like the son of God within you
I will wait until the self-pity leaves you
I will wait until you are stronger
Stronger than you’ve ever been
Cus that’s how I want to see you


Wednesday, 18 April 2012

PLANS


The best laid plans are best laid on a shelf
Where reality can’t touch them
And life doesn’t get to strike them
The best laid plans are best laid out on a shelf

It’s like these shoes
These are my shoes
I didn’t borrow them
I spent good money on them
They looked so pretty on the shelf
They are meant to fit me
But
I just had a trip
That invoked flashbacks of the last ankle break
And visions of
A new blue cast
To match the pretty blue skies
That I will only get to see from my pretty blue sheets
If I break this ankle
Because of these shoes

But these are my shoes
I spent years trying to grow into them
Time trying to fill them
Collecting diploma after diploma
Degree after degree
Flying from country to country
Bouncing from continent to continent so fast
They should have called me airplane
All just to
Make a name
Pave a way
Implement a well laid plan
That seems to have found its own way
I thought these were my shoes

It’s like 30
I had plans for 30
We were meant to stroll hand in hand into fun
Having got the basics down
You know the drill
Husband - check  
Career   - check
House - check
Kids, I don’t know let’s say half check

The job centre wasn’t on my list when I made those plans but...
Yea
I had plans for 30
But now I see her a week off
And my heart beats so fast
Till my chest can’t hold it
But my eyes behold it
Racing down the street
To beg time to slow down & stand still
Just for one moment
One moment long enough to let me breath
One moment long enough to realise one dream
One moment where clarity marries me
And gives me a clue
About the genesis to my exodus
From what I thought was a well laid plan

 Lot got what he wanted
Abraham looked like he didn't
But eventually he  got what God had promised
Look who fared better
These are my shoes
I don’t understand why they still don’t fit
But I know these are my shoes
So channelling Abraham
I am just going to stand here, sit here, and wait here
Kneel here, until God hears
And fills my shoes

written on 17th April 2012



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Sunday, 8 April 2012

Easter


If they told me death was the destination
I’d turn around, find another way instead
If they said my blood would suffice
I’d renegotiate, everything has another price
If I could choose gain and just skip the pain
They won’t have to ask me twice

If I was God looking down
Would I really come down to this?
Beautiful people acting ugly
Transient emotions trapping freed people
Brothers killing brothers just for money
Prosperity preachers getting richer of the poor’s pocket money
I would not come down to this
But he did

Seeing the cross he kept going
Perceiving their thirst for blood
He was forgiving
Seeing me as I am
He was accepting
There was no negotiating
No relenting
He just took the pain
Said I was worth it as his gain

So my Easter is everyday
I know I can’t repay him
My Easter is everyday
I’m thanking God Jesus saved me.